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Home, Heart and Holidays and back to share…..

The year 2010 has proven to have been a tremendous blend of wilderness and mountain top experiences colliding with one another so that candidly well yeah,  I was overwhelmed by them. I suppose many of you like me cannot quite fathom we are on the cusp of 2011. How did time go by so fast? A favorite saying of mine is that God has speeded up time and that is why it seems we cannot keep up. In fact, there is some proof of that but ( sigh ) that is quantum physics and I am not gonna go there….maybe I went to Purdue University but my gifts have never lain in that arena. However it seems to me that His grace has shortened the days for a whole lot of reasons.

I cannot let 2010 go by without giving great praise to our Almighty God! My heart is so full of joy today as the blessings of this year are remembered in my heart. The Lord did something very special for me these last couple of days and that is He reminded me how much He loves me. ( us ) It is too amazing for words and just the intimacy of time with Him during the 4th watch this week has been deep and rich.  It is so simple and perhaps that is the mystery of it… He just wants us to seek Him, believe He was the one who was and is and is yet to come.  The Master of this great universe, choreographer of the dance of the stars, and the dancing light in my grandchildren’s eyes… sent His SON down from Heaven to become flesh so we might understand who He is. This is the journey we as believers are on is it not.. to be diligent seekers of going deeper to know, believe and have a relationship of who He is.  That is my heart’s desire as I grow older and learn more every day how much my life needs to be about this one true thing.

John 1

The Eternal Word

1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. 2 He was in the beginning with God. 3 All things were made through Him, and without Him nothing was made that was made. 4 In Him was life, and the life was the light of men. 5 And the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend[a] it

This morning was an amazing one… the release to write this blog again came at long last. This morning the was full of joy as up alone taking in the dawn of day seeing the brightest star on the eastern horizon, the night slip into day with it seemed all of creation singing! Birdsong outside my window as little wrens, redbirds and yes even blackbirds rejoiced in the melting NC snow to dart in and out of less freezing weather.  My heart was full of worship and my spirit in awe of the answered miracles that I had awoke to find in email that the Lord had performed for the ministry He has called me to. ( that is another testimony and a blog to come ). So I took in the morning with song, a snuggly dog, warm blanket and an excellent cup of coffee and I celebrated the reality of being in a place where I could worship Him in abandon.  A blessing not to be taken for granted and my prayer is that me, my family and fellow believers stand for this privilege.  In retrospect, I celebrated this past year with it’s intensity, challenges and deep blessings. We lost two family members in 5 months ( both of Tony’s parents who died exactly on the same day 5 months apart. The difficulty of public persecution on a personal level as a ministry leader, the challenges that followed in rebuilding the ministry internally  with the finest team ever and  the sweetness of what resulted by the power of prayer, and the faith that develops stronger in such circumstances. I am thankful. Then there was my husband Tony’s knee injury and surgery inserted in the midst of our pending trip to Israel. This trip had been a life long dream which again by the grace of the Lord and prayer .. we went and while there learned our son Reed and his wife Erica are going to bless us with a grandchild to become our third.

Many of you who correspond with me regularly or who happen to be close friends and family know that it has been my desire to share all about the trip my husband Tony and I took to Israel.  Until this morning, I did not have the release, I was waiting on from the Lord to attempt to share what we saw, felt and understood by being there.. I pray with all my heart that all these riches still processing in my heart and mind can be put into words.

So beginning this first day of 2011, I am going to commit to do this till it is all chronicled as a life changing experience.

May God bless you richly this New Year and may we all occupy well as we long for His return.

Selah

True joy… a sacrifice of praise (particpating in Proverbs 31 Joy Carnival )


Today as I watched the morning come in my window and the stars where saying their final goodbyes to the day, my heart was somewhat overwhelmed with recent realities of life and I literally just laid down my head and cried.  Our heavenly Father seems so close in the early morning hours and it comforts me to be with Him in this special time of the night watches just before daybreak.  When I can be still and listen — my manna for this day.

In the Bible we are reminded of the value of seeking the Lord in the early hours as referenced in

Mark 1:35
New American Standard Bible
In the early morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house, and went away to a secluded place, and was praying there.

Jesus was an early riser to seek the Lord in prayer as mentioned over and over in a secluded place.

Our Heavenly Father knew we need the quiet and He placed Jesus as and example  of prayer and intimacy with Him for the beginning of the day.  This so resonates with me to get up and do the Jeremiah 33:3 thing– seek me and you will find me and I will show you secret and amazing things.

So here I am feeling very brokenhearted for a myriad of reasons: the  very traumatized children I am working with and for in the ministry I lead ( Yahweh Center Children’s Village http://www.yahwehcenter.org

Lamenting in particular for  a child whose family of origin for four generations has practiced prostitution and how this sweet boy with is fighting such intense emotions that he has to have a nap to renew his strength.  Yet oh how this child can sing and his face all aglow as he broke free from his activity to pick a dandelion and give it to me.  Bravely in a praise mode at that moment.
A true sacrifice of praise.

Then there is my mother in law, Verda who calmly called my husband to tell him that the Doctor has told her there  is not much time and maybe she should consider Hospice.  She is gently in a ”  joyful ” place witnessing serenely because the joy of the Lord is her strength.  ( Nehemiah 8: 10 )

Another..

One lady, I admire so much dear Sue who is such an inspiring encourager to others although she has many physical challenges as her daily life, she graces all who come to know her through the joy she humbly exudes in her daily walk in Christ.  Her joy is a ” sacrifice of praise”. She writes me a lovely email and in it barely mentions surgery today.

The faces of my staff who learned yesterday that our paychecks are going to be held up because of delays in our payment for our professional treatment work.. with one sending me an email to tell me that she and one of the nurses in our psychiatric unit made banners and had the children singing for God inhabits the praises of His people…

My mentor, Shirley who is in so much pain from physical afflictions that it could be a blog in itself .. witnessing, encouraging  others with joy! She demonstrates the multiplication of encouragement.

All these things lifted up for desperate prayer.

This testimony of ” joy” in the Lord begins to lift my spirits and before long by reading His word and with remeberance of the power of the testimony of His children whose circumstances seem anything of joy…. my heart and spirit are lifted and the joy of the Lord over takes all the emotions and suddenly the joy of the Lord is my strength, and it is overflowing.

I go down and put on the coffee turning on my local Christian radio hearing His name lifted up in praise and turn to see the kitchen filled with light.

So thankful to experience this mystery of His inexplicable joy!

Surrender and the return of innocence

Eila with a lamb and learning each day about the Lamb of God— a picture of innocence and how perfect praise comes from the mouth of the children.

These past few weeks and days… they seem to roll over onto one another have brought me to a new place.  Hesitantly I share this as it is so fresh in my spirit and is still “formulating’.  I just emailed a friend and tried to share this — the sense of “crossing over”.   In the book of Exodus in Chapter 12 the Hebrew children are called to great obedience and trust in order to have the Angel of Death ” Pass Over” … a shadow and pattern of applying the blood of the Lamb for protections and the supernatural provision of the LORD– Yahweh.

Then that concept is found again in Joshua the commentary of Matthew Henry about their crossing the Jordan is found within ” Biblegateway”

and is as follows ..

The Israelites come to Jordan.

The Israelites came to Jordan in faith, having been told that they should pass it. In the way of duty, let us proceed as far as we can, and depend on the Lord. Joshua led them. Particular notice is taken of his early rising, as afterwards upon other occasions, which shows how little he sought his own ease. Those who would bring great things to pass, must rise early. Love not sleep, lest thou come to poverty. All in public stations should always attend to the duty of their place. The

people were to follow the ark. Thus must we walk after the rule of the word, and the direction of the Spirit, in everything; so shall peace be upon us as upon the Israel of God; but we must follow our ministers only as they follow Christ. All their way through the wilderness was an untrodden path, but most so this through Jordan. While we are here, we must expect and prepare to pass ways that we have not passed before; but in the path of duty we may proceed with boldness and cheerfulness.

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Both of these accounts are so meaningful because of the utter need to cry out to ABBA from His children.

When I consider Eila ( pronounced eye la ) she has the faith of a child who has known she can count on her parents. Her Daddy and Mommy are truth tellers,  nurture her, affirm that she is a wonderful little girl who is greatly loved by them. She is a part of their flesh and blood– but born with the Holy Spirit hovering over her in the womb. Having the ” living waters flowing” while she was being “fearfully and wonderfully made ”  Psalm 139

13For you(P) formed my inward parts;
you(Q) knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
14I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.[a](R)
my soul knows it very well.
15(S) My frame was not hidden from you,when I was being made in secret,
intricately woven in(T) the depths of the earth.
16Your eyes saw my unformed substance;in your(U) book were written, every one of them,
the days that were formed for me,
when as yet there was none of them. 17How precious to me are your(V) thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Wonderful are your works.

You see the WORD of  God was being read to little Eila before she was born and steadily after. She knows that Jesus loves her and she reads from her ” Girl Bible” with her parents daily.

That is the “innocence ” in which she loves Jesus and the Word of God because she is already having the Bible as her daily bread.  I am so delighted as her grandmother to bear witness to this and to also spend time , her Papa and I … sharing the love and power of Jesus Christ with this little lamb.   She already has a natural surrender that is a part of all she knows and will like the rest of us battle the flesh for keeping surrendered to a life in Christ. She however knows that her Abba is to be trusted. Her earthly parents provide a marvelous template to what her Heavenly Father wants her to see about His character.   This is the blessing of what is shared in Deuteronomy 6:

1“Now this is(A) the commandment, the statutes and the rules[a]2that(B) you may fear the LORD your God, you and your son and your son’s son, by keeping all his statutes and his commandments, which I command you, all the days of your life, and(C) that your days may be long. 3Hear therefore, O Israel, and be careful to do them, that it may go well with you, and that you may multiply greatly,(D) as the LORD, the God of your fathers, has promised you, in a land flowing with milk and honey. that the LORD your God commanded me to teach you, that you may do them in the land to which you are going over, to possess it, ( emphasis mine )
4“Hear, O Israel:(E) The LORD our God, the LORD is one.[b]5You(F) shall love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might. 6And(G) these words that I command you today shall be on your heart. 7(H) You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise. 8(I) You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes. 9(J) You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates.

So when I consider the “crossing over ” and Passover — it is with a new revelation of what this means.  To truly surrender ourselves to the Passover Lamb — Yeshua Hamashicah  our Jesus the Messiah is to return to innocence as intended long ago in the garden of Eden! Without this surrender to the LAMB … we will not have the great Shalom, He has for us. That sounds so simple– it is too amazing to grasp the taking of it into daily living  is a life long journey out of a wilderness to a place of “crossing over” .
Whether is was in Egypt coming out by obedience and trust with applying the blood on the lintels and door posts or the priests putting their foot in the Jordan. It came by hearing the “word’ of the Lord.  Then applying that word in obedience and with faith.

Faith I am learning does not mean not having fear but surrendering that fear unto the obedience of  casting down thoughts and imaginations at the feet of Christ. It takes a wilderness experience to practice it and to get quiet so I can diligently seek Him. It takes the understanding of applying the blood of the Lamb. The wonder of it is supernatural not understood completely … just believed in heart, mind and spirit. He does the rest for us via the Holy Spirit.

When having the privilege of spending this years Passover with teacher and hearer of the Word , my friend Shirley.. she lead us in scripture from Genesis to Revelation of the Messianic scriptures in the Bible and how Yeshua or Jesus is to be seen as the essence of “Passover “.

This was a “revelatory” experience for me and the others present as well from what they have shared. For me, it has been a new as He said, I will make all things new… spiritually something changed.  I cannot put this into words but I believe it is to discover the return to innocence by embracing the whole WORD about the LAMB of GOD– Yeshua.

Here is the challenge — not to lose this place of understanding in the “cares of this world”. To be wheat-growing strong not to be shifted like “chaff”.  For He is coming soon for the Great Harvest.
May I be found worthy and “standing” …

Blessings of the Resurrection to you today~

Selah

11 Revelation Song By Kari Jobe

10 Kadosh The Hebrew singing of this song from the album on the Road to Jerusalem will bless you … enjoy~