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Pictures worth a thousand words…

Psalm 33:

20 Our soul waits for the Lord;
he is our help and our shield.
21 For our heart is glad in him,
because we trust in his holy name.
22 Let your steadfast love, O Lord, be upon us,
even as we hope in you.

Below is a 1 minute video that tells a story about some children –little lambs the Lord has brought to our ministry, the Yahweh Center Children’s Village.

They are indeed His sheep. Please help us feed them today. As I write this we are in critical need of funds. We have closed a program for children in order to have a higher level of care- as second Psychiatric Residential Treatment Facility.  However, the licensing of it is in process and children are waiting for admission. We wait, they wait but while we do we are in the narrow valley without this funding stream.
If this video touches you please donate to http://www.yahwehcenter.org  today.

You may have already done so .. then praise the Lord for  you.

Jesus loves the little children….


Are you on the Fence? Or will you pray? A Lamentation for the children

I found it again today “hidden” in my quarantine files another email from Tami now an adult thanking me for our ministy’s part of her survival. You see she was with us for 3 years back on our first home for these amazing kids…

Tami is a survivor of being in a situation where her younger brother was killed by their” adoptive” mom.. she has written this note to me today and I am not posting it all as I do not have her permission but this is what part of what  she wrote

hey carla, my name is tamara ( took out last name ) i used to stay at the old Yahweh center, and i loved it, and am so grateful that you helped me out!!! i will never forget all that i learned there. anyways i have my own family now, i am married with a year old little boy and another child on the way (due in october) and really love my family. here is something that i wrote yesterday that i thought you would like. my husband and i want to start a safe home for abused children but right now we do not have the funds but we pray on it every day, and feel that this is the Lords will for our lives, and that he will allow us to recieve the means to do so, in his timing. if you have any suggestions ar comments please let me know, i could use all the help i can get!!! thankyou.

This is an open book friends… all transparency here in this post tonight. I am pulling from the depth of emotion today. Where is the mission field for these children? It is indeed here at this moment. Yes, I know much travail is in the world.. but my “call” is to this little patch of earth on Lamb’s Path Way where children’s futures are in the balance. This is a battle cry…

Arise, cry aloud in the night At the beginning of the night watches;
Pour out your heart like water Before the presence of the Lord;
Lift up your hands to Him For the life of your little ones

(Lamentations 2:19

James 1:27 Pure and genuine religion in the sight of God the Father means caring for orphans and widows in their distress and refusing to let the world corrupt you.

Is the Body of Christ on the fence in their behalf ?

My coming to you in this post is because of the absolute need for prayer as I see our ministry sliding over the edge in deep financial need. This is going now , I have let sit for a day because when one pours out of me in a deep lament, I feel a release to continue by the Holy Spirit. I simply could not write the words to go forward because the weight of it was so oppressive,  I had to just stop. Sleep has eluded me and so when I came home from the ministry today, we ate supper and I just went into a deep sleep. Upon rising and being alone with the creation of the universe outside my window in the night—the release to share has come. So I share my heart, my prayers, my passion and my questions with you.

I want to thank you all very much for your prayers, encouragement and all levels of support for the Yahweh Center Children’s Village. I have been spending time reading about people of great faith, those in the Bible and those whose life in ministry, missions and in the workplace, whose faith and testimony glorify the Lord.

Some of my non-biblical favorites are: Amy Carmichael, George Mueller, DL Moody, Watchmen Knee, Elizabeth Elliot, Hudson Taylor, George Washington, and some of you. What they shared in common was the unfailing time spent in reading God’s word and then deep abiding prayer, and praise for our Lord. They totally put their trust in Him. This was their way of life and it inspired and influenced the world for Christ.

They were above all people who knew the value of prayer…. and it is that gift of prayer which I seek from you in writing this email…

The Lord gave me vision to for these children over 22 years ago , I have been trying to go back and review this vision which came from inquiring of the Lord in fervent crying out that HE knew what these children were going through. In my lamenting back then, I was pacing the floors  in my living room, just broken, tired of the continual and disturbing daily trauma of children I was then working with as a frontline Dept of Social Services social worker. I cried  to the Lord specifically from Matthew 18:10-11.
10 “Take heed that you do not despise one of these little ones, for I say to you that in heaven their angels always see the face of My Father who is in heaven. 11 For the Son of Man has come to save that which was lost.

As you may remember from my sharing this story when I was crying out saying to God I said to Him “  your angels for these children come before you face to face EVERY DAY!!!  I said, to Him you know, why are you not doing something and He said, why don’t you do something? Not the answer I expected but I heard Him most clearly and it birthed a response in me.

The doing something is a long journey in the continual school of prayer, praise, learning, developing faith muscles, victories, failures, warfare, fruit and victories that s that is now  the Yahweh Center Children’s Village. A review of our history in which  thousands of children found Jesus Christ and healing from a world of hurt and betrayal. The healing resulting in abundant laughter of children who were so broken they could not speak echoes in my mind’s hearing. Those set free to the glory of the Lord Jesus Christ. His great victory to the one lost now found – a testimony of your hearts, the work of the staff, the prayers of the saints for the “least of them”

This is a partnership of celebration….

I am trying to recall the vision and the scriptures leading to it because my friends it appears there continues to be an expectation of some standard for this ministry that we must have help to achieve. Our problem is that we simply do not have a financial cushion—none—on the complete edge financially because of never having had enough funds at one time to build one. We have made it day by day minute by minute sometimes. We have had to do this for over 22 years but it is time to quit going around that mountain, the numbers are too big….

I have to think what we need most right now is the commitment to pray from an army of the LORD’s people —the real body, who will come along side of us in prayer to break down this stronghold of continual poverty.  Rest assured we have been seeking godly counsel and have sought a plan that will lead us into the future but I cry out for the here and now to get us through to that broad place that is still developing. Did not the children of Israel, all the early church go through tribulation? Most missionaries had times of despair and the questions they had—echo mine do we struggle for the lack of prayer to fight this battle? I believe we need not only prayer but fasting as well.

We have repented of any known sins in the camp and even of the ones that we might not realize. Who can come on His Holy Mountain? Those with clean hands  and pure hearts.  Psalm 24: 4

We fall down before Him pleading for a pure hearts and hands so we can come

Please review with me the scriptures below because when trying to find the words to say, I humbly do not know what else is to be said but these scriptures say it all.

We need you to read them, let the Holy Spirit speak to you and then please commit to pray for this ministry. There are those out in the world, and in the body who could help and just have not while others have been so faithful… some in fairness do not understand or know our need.  They do not see the faces or see the child who is a new creation. One little boy who recently said ,” just give me Jesus and I will be safe.”

Are we the body not Jesus on this earth through His spirit and example? If we cry out in one accord, lament and plead like the woman in the scripture below will not the heavens open for the fate of these little ones. Will not our prayers be taken to the throne room and placed in the bosom of our Father, our Abba , will we not cry out for them? His word says so…

Matthew 18 (New King James Version)

New King James Version (NKJV)

Matthew 18

Who Is the Greatest?

1 At that time the disciples came to Jesus, saying, “Who then is greatest in the kingdom of heaven?”
2 Then Jesus called a little child to Him, set him in the midst of them, 3 and said, “Assuredly, I say to you, unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven. 4 Therefore whoever humbles himself as this little child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. 5 Whoever receives one little child like this in My name receives Me.

Jesus Warns of Offenses
6 “Whoever causes one of these little ones who believe in Me to sin, it would be better for him if a millstone were hung around his neck, and he were drowned in the depth of the sea. 7 Woe to the world because of offenses! For offenses must come, but woe to that man by whom the offense comes!
8 “If your hand or foot causes you to sin, cut it off and cast it from you. It is better for you to enter into life lame or maimed, rather than having two hands or two feet, to be cast into the everlasting fire. 9 And if your eye causes you to sin, pluck it out and cast it from you. It is better for you to enter into life with one eye, rather than having two eyes, to be cast into hell fire.

The Parable of the Lost Sheep
10 “Take heed that you do not despise one of these little ones, for I say to you that in heaven their angels always see the face of My Father who is in heaven. 11 For the Son of Man has come to save that which was lost.[a]
12 “What do you think? If a man has a hundred sheep, and one of them goes astray, does he not leave the ninety-nine and go to the mountains to seek the one that is straying? 13 And if he should find it, assuredly, I say to you, he rejoices more over that sheep than over the ninety-nine that did not go astray. 14 Even so it is not the will of your Father who is in heaven that one of these little ones should perish.

Luke 18 (New King James Version)

New King James Version (NKJV)

Luke 18

The Parable of the Persistent Widow

1 Then He spoke a parable to them, that men always ought to pray and not lose heart, 2 saying: “There was in a certain city a judge who did not fear God nor regard man. 3 Now there was a widow in that city; and she came to him, saying, ‘Get justice for me from my adversary.’ 4 And he would not for a while; but afterward he said within himself, ‘Though I do not fear God nor regard man, 5 yet because this widow troubles me I will avenge her, lest by her continual coming she weary me.’”
6 Then the Lord said, “Hear what the unjust judge said. 7 And shall God not avenge His own elect who cry out day and night to Him, though He bears long with them? 8 I tell you that He will avenge them speedily. Nevertheless, when the Son of Man comes, will He really find faith on the earth?”

Jesus Blesses Little Children
15 Then they also brought infants to Him that He might touch them; but when the disciples saw it, they rebuked them. 16 But Jesus called them to Him and said, “Let the little children come to Me, and do not forbid them; for of such is the kingdom of God. 17 Assuredly, I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God as a little child will by no means enter it.”

Jesus Counsels the Rich Young Ruler
18 Now a certain ruler asked Him, saying, “Good Teacher, what shall I do to inherit eternal life?”
19 So Jesus said to him, “Why do you call Me good? No one is good but One, that is, God. 20 You know the commandments: ‘Do not commit adultery,’ ‘Do not murder,’ ‘Do not steal,’ ‘Do not bear false witness,’ ‘Honor your father and your mother.’[a]
21 And he said, “All these things I have kept from my youth.”
22 So when Jesus heard these things, He said to him, “You still lack one thing. Sell all that you have and distribute to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, follow Me.”
23 But when he heard this, he became very sorrowful, for he was very rich.

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Please oh please make prayer for this ministry a priority. Take just a minute to visualize the children we serve, see the those little ones on the fence above, please do not be on the fence of delay in prayer –

Thank you in advance for hitting your knees in prayers for us. We can feel it when you do~

Any concern too small to be turned into a prayer is
too small to be made into a burden.” – Corrie Ten Boom

In His Hope Abiding,



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Hebrews 11:1 Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see.

01 In Better Hands by  Natalie Grant– Listen and consider what your hands can do for Him

“The Yahweh Center Children’s Village is dedicated to providing hope, healing and restoration through the power of Jesus Christ to traumatized children and their families. We accomplish this through residential care, child placement and outpatient services using prayer as a foundation

Seasons of strengths amid seasons of sorrow

Today has been a wrangling process with this particular post… maybe it’s the topic which has taken me to a ” selah ” time for about two weeks.  Having seen dear people I love, know and know of… lose loved ones, or relationships, their lives forever changed has put a “quiet, be still now in my spirit”. Anyone who knows me well, will understand that itself out of character for me to be so “quiet”.

The eyes have seen in our world  and culture, I fear too much death, tragedy , and devastation of historical  magnitude “right up and personal ” in their home, office, or coffee house peripheries . My concern is around if this will ( does )  lead to a  a kind of de-sensitization.  I am pondering this.

In the last couple of weeks, via the technology of our day ….great tragedy has been presented in our view on either the internet, on our radios, cable news or in our daily reading about the horrific events in Haiti.

Such magnitude of loss, grief and suffering touches all of us in some way unless one no longer has a heart that can be touched by such events.

Can that be happening too? Concerned for a bit then head down not looking, hearing anymore?  Believe me, I know people who are not doing that but unfortunately there are many more things taking center stage and missing what this “shaking ” means for the believer…  ( more on that later here )

It became real for us through many who are closely tied to those in and around Haiti. The connections to many ministries are vast and the blogs of the daily suffering that I have read touched me to tears and gratitude for those who are alive giving testimony.

It led me to prayer for the Christians on the ground in the trenches who are in their greatest hour of walking out their faith. It makes me ask myself.. how would I do there? Would I stand in strength? Oh Lord … would I? Someway, I know this is an altar call for the “remnant ” bride of Christ to internally see if we are intimate with Him to be ready.

This great cataclysmic tide of sorrow has rolled in with a reminder of the strengths of people who manage to show a testimony of survival against all odds. For those who prevail …their faith seems to rise amid the seasons of sorrow. For faith is the sustainer of those who reach for Him in the midst of so much pain. ” The Lord is near the brokenhearted and those crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18

It takes me to a song by Addison Road… “Everything rides on hope now, everything rides on faith somehow… when the world has broken me down, Your love sets me free.”  You’ve become my hearts desire, I must sing your praises higher”… Could I sing my praises higher when my family is buried under rubble?

How about if, the only hope in the “camp” is the Bible verse that is my head when all is shaken? Or there is such surreal incoming of events that the mind is swamped. What would I do? I am asking myself that while being in the real company of people who  have in a different set of circumstances battled grief, sorrow, loss and shaking all around in another sort of way.

The first time loss really hit my life was on Christmas day during my early childhood when our little dog “Pepper” crawled up on my lap. It was while I was looking at a new gift in the form of a book… he simply died. It shocked and stunned me. At age 4, it broke my heart.

This was a great sadness and came with a sense of betrayal and injustice since I had prayed for Pepper. A tiny dog who had gotten into a scrimmage with a German Shepherd who grabbed him by the neck.   My early encounter with deeply talking things over with God grew from this moment.

Walking in farm fields when bringing up the Holstein cows.. much time to talk to the Lord.
There was no shortage of these types of things .. beloved animals that would perish on our dairy farm.  Early life lessons about death and the feelings of loss when a cow, lamb, cat or another pet was  no longer part of my daily joy. Baby calves who did not make it in the cold winter barns or a favorite cow who was struck by lightening when drinking from a pond. These were events of life on a farm that is based on seasons.

I lost my grandparents and my dearest adopted grandmother whom  I deeply loved and held on to the fact they knew the Lord and were in His place now.

Fast forward.. to my early young adulthood. Now a mother of an 18 month old, I get the word ( the dreaded phone call )  that my younger and beloved brother was killed instantly in an accident on a beautiful June day … my parents world blew apart.  We traveled quickly home to the family, farm, funeral and the questions that would come.

My question was to God, as I was not sure if my dear brother was saved. My husband and my last conversation with him in our North Carolina home was about Jesus and a candid discussion about Him as Savior but I still did not know.

So I prayed and prayed for God to show me the answer to that question and in His grace and mercy, He did.  Two weeks later in the quiet of my home, our little girl had woke up in the middle of the night and I said to God ” Oh please let her go back to sleep because I don’t want to think about Doug ( my brother ) because it hurt so much.

Then it happened the feeling of going into a warm room from a cold one.. it felt like it lasted for a long time and a voice said to me

” Do not let your heart be troubled, he is in a safer place than you can imagine”.  I was awake during this time and I woke my  husband to ask him if he had heard it.

He had not but I knew that I knew that our Lord in His great mercy and love had told me what I needed to accept my brother’s death. I called my mother and father but my mother instead of being happy to learn this said to me ” why would God tell you and not me”?

Exactly .. because I was desperate for the knowing and I believed Him when He told me. This was my first really true  voice of God experience of Him speaking to me audibly.  ( I have only had two out loud ones , the rest are to my spirit ).

This grace of this revelation I see now was also preparation for how I would learn to experience a relationship with God in a growing way.  When we are weak, He is strong.

Fast forward again to the present where it seems that the walking out of ones faith is evident in the lives of so many around me and yes even the strangers on TV or the blogs posted where believers in Haiti are pouring their hearts out.

For those around me, our dear receptionist at my work ministry has been an incredible testimony of strength in sorrow. For those who have read my blogs.. her mother,  ( whom we were praying for ) Dianne went on to be with Jesus on January 8.  Not only did she lose her mother but a little over a year ago lost her son to a great tragedy and has fallen on her faith in Jesus Christ to come through these hard times.

It was this “season of sorrow” that has fashioned a great woman of faith. She humbles me. When at her mother’s wake, she absolutely glowed in the peace of the Lord. Not to say there was not sorrow but the triumph of the joy of the Lord being her strength was her countenance, manner and speech. A testimony in an offering of faith in sorrow.

Then there is my friend via email ministry who lost a relationship that was hard to walk away from. She has done it, is doing it and is faith in motion as she daily adjusts to this loss. Strength I can feel through heartache on the pages.

Then there are the children who are healing from abuse, neglect and a childhood of loses who are receiving residential care and treatment in our ministry. The children who get up each day with a smile on their face but not yet in their eyes.. those who long, crave, need to belong to an adult, a family who is just over the moon for who they are.. but they are not in sight. So they are holding on to the Word of God in scripture . Jeremiah 29:11 ” For I know the plans I have for you , not for evil or calamity but a hope and a future…

That they are “fearfully and wonderfully made” Psalm 139 and they slowly transform through childlike strength in seasons of sorrow. They amaze me each day.. these tiny towers of strength wrapped in the arms of staff, with songs of deliverance from Christian radio to be the lullaby in their heads.

One little boy broke my heart this past couple of days as his sadness was enveloping him to a place of despair… not unlike the children anywhere who are suffering.  Just a mission field ( stateside ) in my daily life instead on the news or in the lives of missionaries I know. He is floundering in deep sorrow trying to find the inner strength to hold on. We are praying!!

Corrie Ten Boom

Perhaps one of the best examples of strength amid seasons of sorrow is the life of Corrie Ten Boom who found the strength to be an encourager of her faith in Jesus Christ despite the loss of her sister Betsy and much of her family in Nazi Germany’s death camps.  I had just read yesterday her account of the following.

When I was in a concentration camp during World War II, we had to stand every day for two or three hours for roll call, often in the icy-cold wind. Once a woman guard used these hours to demonstrate her cruelty. I could hardly bear to see and hear what happened in front of me.

Suddenly a skylark started to sing high in the sky. We all looked up, and when I looked to the sky and listened to its song, I looked still higher and thought of Psalm 103:11: “For as the heavens are high above the earth, so great is His steadfast love toward those who fear Him” (RSV).

Instantly I saw that this love of God was a greater reality than the cruelty I experienced myself and saw around me. “Oh the love of God, how deep and great, far deeper than man’s deepest hate.”

In His mercy, God sent that skylark every day for three weeks, just at the time of roll call, to give us an opportunity to turn away our eyes from the cruelty of men to the ocean of His love.

God’s love is both a protection and a weapon. It guards us against impatience, against bitterness, against gloating. It is also a very strong weapon in the battle to win souls, for it never gives in.

It looks for a way of being constructive, it is glad when truth prevails. Love knows no limit to its endurance, no end to its trust, no fading of its hope: It can outlast anything. It is, in fact, the one thing that stands when all else has fallen (see 1 Cor. 13).


Are we being prepared as we journey in this life as a believer to be able to have the strength to tell a suffering world of His great love?

I believe the Lord is crying out to His children in these events to arise and come closer.  Coming closer now, daily, deeply is going to make all the difference.

When we are weak He is strong and is its our abiding hope to share with a broken world. Oh Lord help me to grow in you so I maybe a witness.

04 There Will Be a Day

By Jeremy Camp who has found strength in seasons of sorrow…