Lessons in the heart.. ” You are for Me”

Here I am in the last moments of the day up here  in my “quiet place ” tending to my emotional wounds of the day and well yeah, frankly feeling lonely, misunderstood and having the proverbial pity party. Maybe I have good reason for this foray into this emotional indulgence but when I took it up a level to include the Lord in my concerns, teardrops turned into prayers.

One of my favorite quotes is the following:

You can draw near to God even though you cannot say a word. A prayer may be crystallised in a tear. A tear is enough water to float a desire to God.”

– Charles H. Spurgeon

Amazing how God reminds us in those bare and broken of spirit moments in life just how much He understands our feelings. After all His Son was sent here to earth  experiencing in the flesh the range of emotions. What a lesson He is teaching me about the “cup of His suffering ” … my minor earthly glimpse that has overwhelmed me. How much His heart had to have been broken by those who would so dismiss, mock, despise the Lord our God.. the Master and Architect of the Universe.
Boy… does that give some perspective to what He wants us to understand about walking with Him and yet He did the amazing thing.. He loved, and forgave and understood giving himself totally over to the will of His Father.

I confess to not being in the most loving spirit as I remembered the day and some of the thoughtlessness that was encountered in real life living that deeply hurt my feelings.  Invisible my feelings to others it seemed..

So in my little office  looking out at the night as it falls and having the blessing of iTunes and all of my favorite music before me I opened up my email. My emails  came flooding in which included some amazing teachings from folks who are fervent believers and seekers of Jesus  as well as notes from friends brothers and sisters in Christ. Many of whom, I have never met but have a deep fellowship with in the Holy Spirit and the trust, kindred spirit that has developed over the years . Likely some of you reading this post are in that group and others understand exactly what I am speaking of.

In my perusal of my emails,   I was  seeing the prayer requests of some in very deep need.  So with my “sufferings’ placed aside for reaching out-– the supernatural effort of encouraging others lifted my spirits.

Soon a change happened in me .

By listening to songs of worship, praise  and the effort to look up scripture for those I am praying for and with… some are members of my family who mean so much to me and are a blessing daily in my life–others whom I have not met but in “spirit” and sharing … He worked  on my heart.  His loving presence exchanged the place of “self” which regardless of what our  cultural  feel good “Church” is teaching is not what Jesus taught at all.  He taught that we must decrease so He might increase..

Chip Brogden teaches amazingly on this in “The School of Christ http://www.TheSchoolOfChrist.org  in this article


He .. Jesus , Yeshua HaMashchiah , knew all the range of emotions and yet He took the full cup of suffering.  Truly I don’t want to  drink from it.. willingly but in His love and example He supernaturally imparts Himself into our hearts.
He is for me , for us.. the fruits of the spirit waiting for us to pick them up and develop deep roots in my ( our ) hearts. Roots deep enough to feed faith and wrapped in the daily fertile soil of His word and continual prayer.

So as I pray tonight for those who need it (including me ) … He uplifts my soul and whispers to me… that He knows..

Psalm 119:25-48

25 My soul clings to the dust;
give me life according to your word!
26 When I told of my ways, you answered me;
teach me your statutes!
27 Make me understand the way of your precepts,
and I will meditate on your wondrous works.
28 My soul melts away for sorrow;
strengthen me according to your word!
29 Put false ways far from me
and graciously teach me your law!
30 I have chosen the way of faithfulness;
I set your rules before me.
31 I cling to your testimonies, O Lord;
let me not be put to shame!
32 I will run in the way of your commandments
when you enlarge my heart! [1]

From Daily Light….

The chief Shepherd.—“I am the good shepherd. I know my own and my own know me. . . . My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they will never perish, and no one will snatch them out of my hand.”

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.

All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the Lord has laid on him the iniquity of us all.—“I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.”—“I will seek the lost, and I will bring back the strayed, and I will bind up the injured, and I will strengthen the weak.”—For you were straying like sheep, but have now returned to the Shepherd and Overseer of your souls.

Heb. 13:20; 1 Pet. 5:4; John 10:14, 27, 28; Ps. 23:1-3; Isa. 53:6; John 10:11; Ezek. 34:16; 1 Pet. 2:25

Selah and blessings on the journey….


7 thoughts on “Lessons in the heart.. ” You are for Me”

  1. Oh thank you Carla,

    I have been sooooo happy lately despite anything. I keep telling myself the enemy can not steal my joy. Sometimes all I can do is say father give me strength. I really appreciate getting these postings and we all are human. We all need encouragement. Thanks again!!

    God Bless you always.

  2. Sister Carla,

    Your words have so gently directed the heavy and somber gaze of the discouraged back to the Joy of the Messiah.

    Thank you for encouraging us all with the Truth of the Good News and for reminding us all of the wonderful purpose of our existence- to live in worship and fellowship with the ALMIGHTY!

    Love ya sister!

    God Bless, daniel

  3. Dear Carla –

    Our Lord rejoices in your coming to HIM with your hurts and not seeking solace in idols and fallen things. Your courage in expanding that circle to include others multiplies the blessings He has poured out on you.

    Thank you for being a faithful conveyor of them, spreading His salt and light to this dying world.

    May you have a blessed day, filled with the joy of Christ — a joy that makes no sense in relation to our circumstances and trials.

    Grace and Peace,
    – Art

  4. Carla,
    You are a strong, encouraging, and wonderful woman of God and I thank you for sharing your heart with us. I’ve experienced through my test, trails & tribulations that when I’m broken (communion) in spirit our Father communicates best. We are partaking in His persecution and longsuffering. I think God wants us there sometimes because we are so humble, pure & forthcoming which allows Him to do a work in us because like you said “when we decrease the power of the living God can increase”…He wants us out of the way.
    I want you to know that what your feeling and what you’re going through is very visible to spiritual eyes. I notice when you come in looking weary but you still manage to muster up a smile, I notice when your make up is smeared like you tried to pull your self together but the tears just wouldn’t stop falling after a long night of crying out and early morning prayer, I notice when when try to avoid people and conversations and store away in your office of solitude.
    During those times I so desperately want to barge in and lay hands and cry out with you but my spirit prompts me to be still and pray. You’re never alone. God is with you and my prayers along with other prayer warriors will always pull you through. If God is for us who can be against us?

    Stay strong in the power of His Might!!!

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