Stones of rememberance .. and the spirit of self control..

You’ve seen them.. the fish emblems that are on cars or vehicles .. a sign that the occupants or let’s say at the least the driver is a “believer” or Christian.

I don’t have one on my car because of the things that happen in traffic and driving that somehow can bring out the worst of ourselves when thoughtlessness, distractions and the need to be somewhere NOW just take over. Or we are listening to some praise songs, happily going on our way with a song rising to the day.  We are just full of a good heart…then some guy cuts us off , or a driver is on their cell phone and makes us miss a light we have been waiting long for. So.. although I handle such things by muttering under my breath, rather than other ways of sharing displeasure, it would be upsetting for  my mistakes in traffic or any other poor example to be what is remembered by those seeing the “fish”. Can I get a witness?

The fruit of the spirits which are to grow and exude in us as we decrease while He increases just amazing get so lost in traffic. The spirit of self control is is one of the fruits than can only grow, I am convinced by the “remembrance “of great favor and blessings..

Stay with me.. this is not about driving stories but the challenge of keeping in the fruit of His spirit when things are not going my ( our ) way.

I love how the Bible shows us in shadows and patterns the victories and failures of the human story.

In reviewing the “Hebrew ” children,  the Israelites continual falling into lacking self control.. came from a lack of remembrance of the great things, the incredible miracles, the “Red Sea” moments. One can read these scriptures  and think what is wrong with those people! God just whacked the whole nation of Egypt and took down the most powerful man in the known world. We would not doubt , nope not ever. had we been there. Come on already people you gotta step up. Admittedly I have thought this in the past..

How could they go from these incredible victories to grumbling so much they wanted to stone Moses. To erect idols to other gods.  This went on as they went “round that mountain’ over and over clicking off the years and a whole generation lost. So when they get to the promised land FINALLY.. ready to cross the Jordan….the Lord instructs Joshua very clearly about marking that moment.  After they are in obedience and awe inspiring faith carrying the Ark of the Covenant into the water,  when they had gotten into the middle of the river, and the priests feet stood firm ..then the waters rolled back so the people could cross over.

Joshua 4

4 Then Joshua called the twelve men whom he had appointed from the children of Israel, one man from every tribe; 5 and Joshua said to them: “Cross over before the ark of the LORD your God into the midst of the Jordan, and each one of you take up a stone on his shoulder, according to the number of the tribes of the children of Israel, 6 that this may be a sign among you when your children ask in time to come, saying, ‘What do these stones mean to you?’ 7 Then you shall answer them that the waters of the Jordan were cut off before the ark of the covenant of the LORD; when it crossed over the Jordan, the waters of the Jordan were cut off. And these stones shall be for a memorial to the children of Israel forever.”

I had lots of reasons to be thinking of these two things,  self control and blessings or stones of remembrance these past couple of months.
They really seem to tie together in the daily walking out our faith in the Christian life.

If you have been reading my recent posts, then you can imagine and likely empathize with the plight of people managing the times of financial stress, combined with practical demanding needs of our daily realities. Like paying the power bill or knowing God will  make a way when their is no evidence, zip, nada of anything to the contrary.Then there is the ministry.. a place full of some broken hearted children who need adults around them who have the range of the fruits of the spirit. Abundantly so. Threshing floor moments.

Such stresses will cause some to funnel all that anxiety to a focal point and as a leader, well some of that frequently will come my way. In other words these calamities must be my fault or there must be something I can do to fix them. So I see how people want to stone the leader. ( Not talking about these stones as ones of remembrance )
Some less than kind things can things can ramp up under those conditions. It happens really hard to absorb and other times not so bad but it is my response that matters.
God has me in a real test here in another way doesn’t  He?  Do I fall back on the numerous stones of remembrance of the truly amazing and miraculous ways He has delivered, provided, protected time and time again.   Oh I wish I could say yeah I am there.
Not without the spirit of self control… letting Him have it all. I mean all.
This is so hard sometimes I just don’t think I can do it at anymore… this whole ministry thing, the increasing pressure coming in so many directions. It is so seductive to have a pity party and go there… right where the children of Israel went, into grumbling and discouragement then despair.  The other side of  things in the spirit world is counting on that, because then we aren’t hearing God. We quit seeing the blessings, those glorious stones of remembrance.

Then only  do such test get passed.  Oh how I want not to keep going round that mountain! Also like the “fish” that is not on my car.. opportunities should not be missed for  encouragement and speaking out our faith in words, example and prayer or yes sometimes in a smile or touch.

Email is a wonderful tool but it can also be used in a flash of emotion and when one hits send... oh boy it can be a wrong move. Email also does not always provide the whole substance of what is written so the receiver has to use subjective reasoning about what was received.  Enter the spirit of self control. Subjective reasoning will get one in a whole peck of trouble.  The fruit of the spirit of self control gets back to a sound mind which can only come from when the Holy Spirit is allowed access.. I must decrease so He can increase.  Also the power of prayer allows for the laying down of the flesh for what He can change in hearts. It has to start with mine!

Upon receiving some recent negative chat back. I had to get still and wait. Struggling with thoughts, things that were just ready to jump out to be said or written. So I prayed and prayed and ask God to show me how to respond or not. When I am weak He is strong. God blesses that so much when we lay it down and say okay Lord, I cannot do it but You can. Show me, hold me,take my hand and give me the mind of Christ.  Infill me with self control. Sometimes like in the movie Bruce Almighty we want to smite them, not really but you know what I mean.

So, I pulled the covers over my head.. literally and asked God to handle it.  Oh my how He came through…

Galatians 5

22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law. 24 And those who are Christ’s have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.

So now I must share some blessings,  testimony, some stones of remembrance.


Allowing several situations for prayer between people where HE showed himself strong. Situations where people were truly hard pressed and desperate for Him. During prayer turning the situation around so much a phone call came in that was an immediate answer to prayer. It happened over and over.

My knowing a  critical bill had to be paid for the ministry and not having one clue how to pay it but praying with others , alone with Him too and then laying it on the altar knowing it was out of my hands and into His. Speaking faith with others about it. THEN going to get the mail and finding how  a refund on past over payment for insurance came in and completely covered this need.Tje funds were almost a literal match.

How a fund raiser that had been held for our ministry results  came in today to cover another need. How someone literally dropped off funds in an envelope at the very gate of our property to a staff and said here take up to Carla. That felt very prophetic to me.

That a couple of men who have very generous hearts are donating a professional volley ball court in full construction, sand the works, to us and began work yesterday. The one gentleman told me with tears in his eyes that he wants to do it for our ministry as  memorial for a young woman who died at the tender age of 22 while in childbirth , a friend of his family. A literal stone of remembrance in physical and spiritual ways.

We prayed over the mother of our dear receptionist still speaking life and the Holy Spirit was so strong it was if the breath of Jesus was right there in the room.  ( please join us in Psalm 27 for Diane ) I watched the spirit of self control in the eyes, prayers and face of this amazing woman who keeps in hopeful faith with stones of remembrance during this very hard time.
He made a way for us in speeding up a process from the state of NC tied to our opening our second psychiatric treatment cottage that others said have taken them two- three months. I was told it would be 7-14 days.

A blessing but also a true “stone of remembrance”

Amy Carmichael who as referenced in my first  detailed post here says this about putting that Ark in the water:

The priests had to walk into the strong current of a  flooded river and stand still there.  What an order to scoff at and what a sight it would pose to other men. But it was not till they obeyed without a particle of  visible proof that they were doing right— and carried the ark right into the river that the water rolled back before them.  So may it be with us as we go on with God.
You and I maybe called again and again to walk right into our own “rivers”. whatever, they may be–to wet our feet in them. We maybe called to do what nobody understands, except to those whom the word of guidance is given and with it, His promise too.

She goes on to say ” But understand this:

The word must come first, and also His promise. You and I must be sure of what we are called to do. and with inward conviction that absolutely nothing can shake. In my own case, again and again, I have had to wet my feet in the water… Only God and those who have to walk in that path know how hard this kind of faith -life can be. But He does know. And when the people around us don’t hear the words and the voice we have heard, and only say it thunders… then He comes near and we know Him as we never knew Him before.

God direct me ( us ) today for seeing the stones of remembrances in our lives and using these  as a guidepost and mile marker in developing the spirit of self control.

Oh yes Lord help me not to forget your manifest benefits with a stone of remembrance.

Joshua 4

8 And the children of Israel did so, just as Joshua commanded, and took up twelve stones from the midst of the Jordan, as the LORD had spoken to Joshua, according to the number of the tribes of the children of Israel, and carried them over with them to the place where they lodged, and laid them down there. 9 Then Joshua set up twelve stones in the midst of the Jordan, in the place where the feet of the priests who bore the ark of the covenant stood; and they are there to this day.


2 thoughts on “Stones of rememberance .. and the spirit of self control..

  1. Oh Carla, I SO enjoy receiving your new blogs when they arrive in my “inbox”. You are such an inspiration and a blessing to me and I am so thankful for your friendship.

    Since I do the weekly parashah study, this week just so happens to be the beginning of Exodus (Sh’mot). You mentioned about the children of Israel who even after coming through their great deliverance, ended up being a thorn in the side of Moses and constantly were in a state of grumbling, moaning, and groaning about what they had back in Egypt. I, too, used to think…….what is it with these people? How ungrateful could they be?

    I realize now that it is because in reading the scriptures we get a glimpse of the beginning to the end, the complete story. Done deal……unlike the children of Israel. They were frightened, unsure of their steps……what now? They had seen extraordinary things, but will He continue to do a mighty work or just leave us and our families out here in this desert to die? We need our comfort zone!

    It was a long, slow process….those 40 years. These people who were “set apart”…..God’s “Holy Nation” had assimilated into Egyptian society. I would venture to say that they “walked and talked like and Egyptian” in every aspect of their thought processes.

    Boy, is that description like us or what???? All our lives, living in this country-a-plenty we’ve walked and talked like an (Exodus) Egyptian and didn’t even realize it! The church has assimilated so much that it is indistinguishable from non-believers. BUT, as we draw closer and closer to our Heavenly Father, as our eyes are opened to the fact that even though we received a great deliverance, it is the wilderness experience which makes us who we are today.

    Your walk and your faith, Carla, and what the Lord is doing through you is a testimony to all those who have just given up and died in the wilderness. You are slowly but surely laying down your stones in the Jordan as a testimony to what lies on the other side in the Promised Land.

    He never said it was going to be easy, but He DID say He would never leave us or forsake us.

    May the Lord continue to bless you and keep you and encourage us all as we arrive at the Jordan River to lay down our stones.

    Shalom and many blessings,

    • Karen,
      Oh my what an incredible set of insights you set forth in your reply. One of my friends even remarked you should do a blog .. you are a wonderful writer.
      Your friendship blesses me too! Thank you so much for reading these and sharing your thoughts on the journey we are on with the Lord.
      Shalom and friendship

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